I wanted to strangle Sheri. I wanted to see her cold blues eyes fill up with redness whilst I took my smallish hands around her neck and squeezed. Her obnoxiousness would be matched by my thumb pressing slowly but effectively into her jugular. I was done with muttering "fuck you" and pretending to listen to her opposite-of-helpful instructions.
But then she said something as she swept unnecessarily under where I was standing. [I just made you read "underwear"]
"I can't tell what's glitter and what's glass."
And I'm a sucker for poetry unbeknown to the poet. That's how He calms me down.
Last night a car crashed into the shop and shattered the wall that is not a shatter virgin. In the past three years, the flower shop has had at least five damaging collisions. I spent the first hour or two of my nine-and-a-half hour shift hoping that I do not kneel on glass shards when I swept around the tables and counters. The UPS Guy (if you've met him, you won't forget him) told me it was probably a Latin King disciple who jumped out of the car and let it go "wherever it went, not caring if they ran over a little old lady." It was eleven o'clock at night; if a little old lady was out she would most likely be one of the bitches who had a Latin King's babies. But that's beside the point.
The point is that Sheri should die. Or retire. Or just not talk.
Saturday, 09 February 2008
I asked Sam if he ever got sad. Just, sad. No reason for it. Maybe a move triggered it. He isn't looking forward for the future. He wishes his arm didn't hurt so much. You know, just sad. Blues. Moping.
But he looked at me like I was crazy. Like feeling disappointment was such a weak, unhealthy thing for a person to do.
I had thought that everyone felt upset or slightly discontent every once in a while. For a minute. Each month. But maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I get blue over too many things. Like elephants without tusks. Or racism. Or college versus romance. Or Fitzwilliam Darcy moving away. Or a lost friend.
It is in my belief that feeling sad here and there makes happiness more memorable.
side note: then, I was listening to his elder brother's music and his lyrics show that he, too, gets sad here and there. And he's a happy, fun guy. Maybe it's just when he's around people, but even faking happiness has its truths, right?
Wednesday, 06 February 2008
Nothing Affects Everyone
and this is why Israel's conquest on the happiness of the Palestinians does not mean a thing.